Maybe I'm restless as I get ready to turn the corner to 30.
Maybe I'm growing up and just wanting to look like it, but I've wanted to change lately. Change is good right?
So I changed, in as big a way as a Pentecostal girl can. My native straight hair is now a mass of curls down my back. And not the kind that I have to sleep on foam curlers to obtain.
So now I look in the mirror as I get ready for school and see the exact Pentecostal girl that I said I would never become. Scarier? I LOVE the way I look and LOVE to look in the mirror.
I don't know what's happening to me lately. I make my skirts a bit shorter, I'm buying high heels. I am twisting my hair up in funky dos with my new perm or even just washing it and "scrunching" it and leaving it down my back. I've put up more photos of myself on facebook in the last week then I had in a long time (Most of my pics on there are school pictures.)
It is sometimes confusing though. I don't know why I am going through all these changes. To prove that although I'm single at almost 30 (I'm a veritable old maid in Pentecost LOL) I am still pretty? Just a feminine desire to be beautiful and alluring?
I can't tell you what these changes are. I'm not sure who I am becoming myself. Between school and church I have little time for introspection.
So what's going to happen in my next thirty years (to borrow a line from Tim McGraw. *smiles*)
I will walk more and more confidently in God, depending on him.
I will see revival in Idaho Falls, while the temple may not come down physically, it WILL metaphorically.
I want to become the person that my pastor thinks that I am.
I want to see my friends at work saved.
Most of all, while I like to look pretty, I want to not concentrate on what I look like, but focus on who I am. Because I'm a princess, a daughter of the king and no matter what I am called to do, I will focus on doing it properly.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
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