Saturday, June 21, 2008

Musing on life, family and church...

Well, it's been a long week. Not enough work IMHO and still not feeling the best that I could.

It was an all church campout this weekend so I ditched uprising and went yesterday for one day (how can I get a tan with SPF 50 sunscreen? that's an imponderable). Actually Keladry and I daytripped. She liked playing with Bentley (the Rice's Old English Sheepdog) and it wore her OUT.

Pastor Rice talked around the campfire last night. About how we needed to bond together and how we are family here at Mountainview. I loved that talk as I looked around the fire at the people that I love and who love me. How can I ask for more love then I have right here?

My pastor and his wife -- they took a chance on me (yes, I can hear the ABBA take a chance on me) but more seriously they saw the woman that I am slowly becoming and are urging her to come out of the shell that i have built up. It's scary for me sometimes, but I manage. I love them and they are never afraid to tell me that they love me.

There are so many people in this church that I can't even mention all the names, but all I can say is that I never lack for hugs or love.

I do miss my family though. Desperately. My brothers, my sister, my nephews, the niece I've never met. My parents and grandparents.

My grandmother had surgery and checked herself out against medical advice and my grandfather (on the OTHER side) is getting ready to be moved to a nursing home. I can't be home to help my parents with the stress of it all. I'm used to being the one who knows about this stuff.

I guess, what's bugging me the worst is that last time I was home, I was grieving so badly because of the loss of a very dear friend. And I didn't pay much attention to my grandparents. I think they'll always be there.

And now I'm afraid they wont'.

Friday, June 13, 2008

:)

I got the OMaxU training done today -- Office Max University online stuff. It's tedious but the process is over. Thank God.

Work work work. And I'm so happy with it. The job is fun, working retail is fun so far and playing with the printers is fun.

Life is good.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Snow and Summer...

Two words that should NEVER EVER go together.

Yet I wake up this morning to white all over the ground. Yeah, WHITE. I take the puppies out and go EEK!

Actually I took a picture and sent it to a dozen people. ;) Hey at least I'm honest.

I'd love some global warming right now. Seriously. It's not been summer weather yet, barely been spring weather.

I'd say I want to move somewhere with a "normal" climate but nowhere is normal. My hometown area has had two tornadoes, two earthquakes and MAJOR flooding this spring. Here it's snowing and cold and constantly windy.

Tell me how this is a comfort?

I don't know. It doesn't make me feel good when it's cloudy and windy though. In spite of varied medications doing their work on my moods.

Life is good though, I enjoy my work at Office Max and I LOVE the graphic design stuff and all the cool stuff I get to play with. VERY VERY fun.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Out of My Mind Bored...

Until Office Max calls with the news that I've passed my drug test, I'm kind of in the wind...

Which is REALLY REALLY REALLY boring.

Working on a few other odds and ends of stuff but it's driving me nuts not to be working full time. Unlimited naps loose their appeal after so long and making myself actually do the housework hasn't worked so far.

Have gotten a bit of work done with Keladry though. She's going to train up well when I work with her.

Pippin has also gotten his cuddle time.

*shrugs*

I can't wait to get back to work.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Summer Break...

So two days and I'm bored out of my skull.

This is in spite of the job hunting.

Though, I cannot complain. Three days of vacation and three job interviews and I have a job at the Office Max copy shop. Pretty psyched actually. But I'm not sure it's going to help me catch up with everything.

I'm at the church (my very cool pastor said I can come over here anytime to use the internet) and listening to a Broadway station on the computer. It's been a long few days and I already miss my students and miss coming in for prayer and Bible reading every morning.

I guess I hadn't realized how much of my life revolved around the school here -- I've been spending seven days a week at the church and get to see my pastor and his wife every day and I'm suddenly just feeling lost without the guidance sometimes. I know I can call the Rices' whenever, but I don't want to be a bother. (Though Sister Rice has claimed if I'm stressed and they don't know then they are even more worried)

It doesn't help that I'm not feeling terribly well at the moment (anemic *sighs*) and I'm worried over stuff back home. My grandfather has been hospitalized with a stroke and no matter how much I'm hearing that he is improving, I'm worried sick because I'm NOT there helping out with the situation. I'm the one who is usually helping with this kind of thing because I have the training.

Instead, I'm in Idaho Falls. A place that I ADORE, but it's feeling like a betrayal to my family.

It's easy to say "Hold your head high, you are in God's will" but it's not so easy in application sometimes. I'm not going back to Indiana, but there are moments...